And a new mother who wonders about a woman..
Asher's tummy "MaMa"- delivered a little baby boy with a cleft lip and palate 2 years ago today. She made the difficult decision to not keep him as her son. We don't know why she chose this. I can only imagine, but we will never know.
I do not walk in her shoes, nor do I claim to believe I am any better of a person than she is.
Today, I hold and love her son.
If I could speak with her I would want her to know that her little boy is healthy, growing, thriving, learning, happy and full of so much joy! He is being well taken care of. His palate will be fixed and he will be able to eat and speak like all little boys should have the chance to do. He will have a voice that will be heard. He will have the opportunity to do many things, but mostly to know the love and healing of Lord Jesus Christ.
I pray for that mother today. Does he have her smile, with the little dimples that are beginning to be seen regularly. Does he have her spunk and feistiness, that knows what he wants from life and works at achieving it? Is she a petite woman, like him, with straight silky black hair that has a mind of its own?
Today, I am so thankful for our son's presence in our lives, in my life. But I also ache for the mother that let him go. I ache for Asher, who will never know who she was or why she made that decision 2 years ago.
I only can pray that the Lord will heal his hurt from the abandonment and will use me to be the kind of mother he needs: one who will wipe away his tears, hold his hand, answer his questions, rock him to sleep and encourage him to try new things.
Asher had rice and spring rolls for dinner tonight. And chocolate cookies with vanilla ice cream for dessert (he isn't big on cake yet). He got some new blocks, lots of books, a toy pull-back train, rocking horse and new jacket. He has many, many material things that he never had in China. But more importantly he has the unconditional love of a new MaMa who chose him because of his cleft lip and palate. A new MaMa who chooses and will always choose to love him for who he is. He is a blessing to this new mama. He is the light of my eyes!
Happy Birthday my sweet Asher Thomas Chen!!
