Since our adoption with Asher is complete, I just don't have time to keep up with adoption posts and family posts. I decided to make a new family blog and this one is not private, at least not for now.
My theme this last year has been "Surrendering To God". That is the reason I picked that for my email and now the title of this blog.
For me however, it is not a concept I am learning easily or quickly. Some days are much harder than others . Some circumstances are much harder than others. I find that my natural bent is to take it into my own hands. I remember times in my growing years when my dad would tell me, "You are the only person you can count on."
My dad taught me a lot of good, and I respect him for who he was in my life. But today I would disagree with that statement. I have come to realize that the Lord God is the only person I can count on. Each meaningful person in my life, aside from my little children, has done at least one thing to let me down, including myself. I have messed many things up in my life and unfortunately those times and situations I do take into my own hands, I sorely damaged things. I know I have let others down. We often put expectations on people that should not be there. And sometimes people who should be doing more in your life just can't or won't.
This also doesn't mean that the Lord will not allow pain in our lives or use hard situations to His glory. But in the end there is freedom. I am finding freedom from pride and control is very peaceful. I have days where I doubt and situations where I have little hope, but the Lord is so gracious to gently force me to let go and surrender those to Him.
So today, again Lord God, I surrender my life to you. I surrender my family to you and all the circumstances that surround us.
